At school I tend to assert myself as much as possible...I can't have people thinking I'm weak (even though deep down I know I am)

My brothers call me weak and transparent all the time yet I always go out to try and prove them wrong...but it seems that everything I do isn't really noticed by anyone who matters most to me.

I wish I got the respect I deserved but I just don't...I feel like my self esteem was just spat on day in and day out. Now I'm paying for it