i'm so sorry that you're having so much sorrow right now concerning our illness. i'm like sqrl, i'm down to very few people that accept me for who i am not what i am. my world has become smaller and smaller over the years. BUT, as sqrl said, we relate to each other here and that is part of what keeps me going. i want my granddaughters to have an energetic and present grandmother for years and years. i don't want them to think of me as "the crazy grandmother" so, i'm going to hold on and pray that we all make it through this trial safely. i fell that we will make it.....xoxo pat