I tried.

I went to the mental health clinic today. They said there is a 6 week minimum wait, and for those 6 weeks you need to take courses every wednesday afternoon. Which I cannot do because I need to work and wouldn't get paid for those afternoons, therefore not being able to pay rent. They said they would 'try to work something out, but taking those classes is the expected route in order to get a pdoc".

Well I left there, and had a meltdown. I am desperate for someone to just help me. I may not be bipolar, but whatever this is is far more involved than just taking antidepressants and suddenly all will be fine.

They found me crying in some extra room they had there and sent me up to ER, hoping I would get into see a pdoc there.

No such luck. Despite seeing a social worker, the psych nurse and the ER doc, I never did get to see the pdoc on call. The Er doc was NASTY and basically told me this was my own fault for not taking my celexa properly. I tried to explain to her it hadn't been working and I wanted something else, so i was going of it on my own, hoping to be able to start something else by the time I got a doc.

She just said there is nothing wrong with you other than you aren't correctly taking your meds (after saying she, the social worker, psych nurse and the on call pdoc had met up). I got angry and said I CAN'T take those meds. They are making me sick everyday, I get horrible headaches, have blurry vision (despite just being tested and having 20/20 vision) and numerous other problems.

I work in a preschool. all those side effects, plus trying to fake happy is just not good for one's health.

Anyway, the doc just walked out and after a few minutes the psych nurse came back and just asked hw i got there (cab) and she said she'd show me where the phones were. So basically get out, we aren't helping you.

I don't know what else to do. Where I am living, there just are no other options. And I guess since I am not threatening to jump off the bridge, then they don't care.

I haven't even eaten today and it is already 2am the NEXT morning. I have just laid here in my bed feeling like no one will ever listen.

What am I supposed to do now?