I am here because I have seen my Dad deal with his brother's suicide, as well as my cousin 3 years ago, and being a Daddy's girl, I just won't do that to him. Also I have a son and I don't want him growing up with the shadow of that following him. I am twisted enough, he doesn't need it too.

But I can tell you, that is the only thing stopping me most days. Although really, even killing myself seems like it would take too much effort.