Yes, that is it! You said it much better!
I'm there and poof I'm gone but then how do I know I'm o.k.?
Feeling behind is better in only that I can feel and see what is going on, but scary because I can't talk or responed when I'm like that.
Trying to deal with not being able to hear what people say cause when I feel really really behind, what people say doesn't stick. I feel it go in but then It's gone even when I try hard to hold on to it.
thanks wanttoheal