I've gotten an email tonight from my step-sister saying that my dad is really wanting to talk to me. I don't know why this is upsetting me. My father is a somewhat good guy. Just very absent. He has never been there for me and never will. He comes out of hiding every so often and calls for a few months and then I don't hear from him for months or sometimes even years. He always ends up letting me down in some way or another. The biggest let down I still haven't gotten over was in Dec. 2001 when I graduated from college. I walked because I was so proud of what I had done. He said that he would come to my graduation and said he had his airline tickets and said what day he would come in. 2 days before he was to fly in I called him because I hadn't heard from him to make arrangements to pick him up from the airport. This was when I found out he wasn't going to come. He wasn't even going to call me to tell me. My parents were divorced when I was very young like 4. I've only gotten to meet my father once in person when I was 17, I'm 32 now. I've always wanted to have a real father/ daughter relationship with him. But I can't help to think, is this the wishes of an abused child just wanting her daddy to rush in and save her? Do I try to let him be a part of my life, to get my hopes built up, to be knocked down again? My husband always gets upset when I start talking to him, because he knows he's going to have to be the one who comforts me when he hurts my feeling yet again. Do I take the step and call him? Or should I email my step-sister back with my telephone numbers? I just scared to be let down again. Monty