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Originally Posted by cantstopcrying
I'm sorry you had such a hurtful childhood and that it seems to continue in a different form now. It doesn't sound like you have had any therapy or anyone at all to talk to to help work through all this. Dealing with that kind of pain and anger and images will definately leave a lot of things bottled up inside you and they will need to come out--either through outbursts or through working through them. Please remember that you need to give yourself love and care; consider finding someone to talk to. Please also know that we are always here whenever you need to vent. When you have time, take a look around at the forums, read old posts from others, you may find helpful information there.  |
Thank you for your kind reply, I appreciate it a lot. I will read past posts, it will feel better to know that there are people who are going through this as well.
I never spoke with a therapist, although I speak about it once in a while with my bf, he was/is a savior in my life in many aspects, when I'm upset and angry like that he manages to calm me down, but unfortunately I don't feel relieved when i talk about it with him because he has a very healthy bond with his mother and family in general, so I feel he can't understand me, or really understand my pain, so I just avoid talking about the matter most of the times. To make matters worst I'm a kind of person who is reservate and tries to ignore problems, pretending they're just something tempoarary... The only thing which would really heal me would be my mother understanding my pain, and be more loving/ appreciative of me, but I also am pretty sure she has issues herself because she was an abused woman, so I don't know if matters will ever resolve, or if I will ever be capable of make ammends and accept my past, or forgiving my parents for ruining a part of my life forever.