That's the part of you that will always love her. She will always always have a special place in your heart. Before you decide to see her, try to focus on the things she has said and done recently. Please try to hold her accountable for them, for you are a caring, loving and sensitive human being, not just something for her to pass the time with when she has nothing else to do. I don't want that to sound cruel, but so often it happens that the person who did the leaving knows that the one who was left is vulnerable and still has feelings, so they use that to their advantage. I just don't want to see that happen to you. I guess basically I'm saying if you agree to see her, do it with your eyes wide open....and definately do not base your whole day on seeing her. Base your whole day on you and your kids and on making you healthy and on making them kids laugh and feel loved.