Don't be sorry and it's not just self pity. Your struggling and it's nice to have someone to talk to even if we are a million miles away. We are as close as right in front you you if you can see it that way.
This is a great site full of caring, concerned people who have the same feelings as you and are going thru problems.

I am not a cutter so I can't relate to that. There are people who are here and they may be able to help you with some of your thoughts and feelings. Maybe even just reading thru some of the old posts will help you realize your not alone.

I can relate to hurt, fear, not feeling good enough and alot of other things.

Don't feel stupid or bad about coming here. We are all here because we need some help, someone to understand, someone to talk to and alot of us are searching for answers.

Please come back and talk with us.
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin