Hi everyone, I haven't be on in awhile, only to read some of the new forums.
I have a question for anyone who can give me some imput to my new problem.
I am returning to work soon(hopefully) and I know that I am going to be hit upon to explain what has been going on with me. I realy do not know how to repsond to some of the curious!! I have been bearly existing and some of my co workers, who have professed to be my friends have all but shunned me since my dx. If they called I am embarassed to say that I did not return the calls, not because I did not want to , but because it took all the energy I had to even talk!! Just making conversation was painful. I didn't feel that I had to go into complete detail of the hell and agony of which they could not even fanthom. Now I feel a complete indifference to them. In addition how do you explain to someone who has never been through anxiety, panic, depression what it is like if they never experienced it at all! I know that I am partly to blame, but I have not ventured out only to see T and GP!
How do you return to a life as they knew it for me when I don't even know if I will ever be the same! By was of the grape vine I found out that by not returning the calls they gave up, which at the time was fine! I had all I could do to even think let alone hold a conversation with anyone!!! I know that my stamina will not be the same and fear that I will be judged by my inability to be who I was before even though I will give it my all.
Any word of wisdom as to how to be someone you are not?