((((((((((( butterflylady ))))))))))) thx for your very kind words

((((((((((( oksomaybeimnuts ))))))))))) thx for the hugs, love your name btw

((((((((((( Ryan ))))))))))) You've always seen the very best in me even when I'm at my worst, you know how much I love you too!!! I do hope you're doing much better than the last time we spoke when we were both fighting the exact same demons. Unfortunately, I still have not recovered from then, hence my taking a break from the forums. I find myself falling much further into the abyss than I was last week with the demons screaming even louder at me than before.

((((((((((( Fury )))))))))))) thx for your kind words and hugs

((((((((((( ozzie ))))))))))) thx for the hugs and for always trying to encourage me!

((((((((((( Fuzzybear ))))))))) Thx for the hugs, I hope you're feeling better these days!

((((((((((( Karen ))))))))))) Thx for the hugs!

((((((((((( wifighter )))))))) Welcome to the forums, thx for the hugs and kind words! Wish we met under better circumstances.

((((((((((( TgrsPurr ))))))) Yes sweetie, we have already made our peace and you were so very gracious to accept my apology in PM. I'm sorry you felt guilty cuz you couldn't *fix me*. I'm not asking nor expecting anyone to do that cuz I know no one here can do that for me, all I'm asking for is to be acknowledged, accepted, understood, validated, listened to, not judged, comforted, and with any kind of hope loved. Maybe that's expecting too much, I don't know, but I think you master that wonderfully. I've been drawn to you since your very first post here. You have a magnetic personality and a heart of pure gold and I thank you for finding room in it to give me another chance. I hope others that I have hurt or angered will have an open and loving heart as you and can follow your example, although at this point it looks as if they will not be doing so, although I think not everyone has seen my apology yet, but some have and have not responded. That breaks my heart even more but I guess I only have myself to blame.

In return, I give y'all acknowledgment, acceptance, my listening ear, my shoulder to cry on, my heart, my non-judgmental understanding, validation of your thoughts and feelings even if they differ from mine (that's irregardless), my friendship, my love. I'm usually able to manage all of the above even when I'm down, my heart is still open to help others in whatever way I can and is needed even if you don't know me, please just ask and I'll be there for you!!!

And for those of you who have ever reached out to me, my undying and very grateful THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart!!!

Much love and peace to ALL.