Thanks for sharing that, Lenny.....I would love to hear you speak!

I think I finally surrendered on September 29th of this year. I had been in AA for about 3 1/2 years, and had year sober here, a few months there....and I started turning to other substances this past spring and sent myself to a new low.

I had a weekend in September when I realized how bad it was - I was having withdrawals, obsessing about where to get more of my substance of choice, thinking about drinking...I called an AA friend for help, I asked my husband for help, I finally admitted to those around me what I was doing.

Part of surrendering for me was accepting the fact that I need a PRESCRIBED medication to deal with my PTSD and the anxiety it creates, at least for now. So many years of self-medicating myself, because I refused to admit and accept that I needed that help.

(((((((((((((((((((Lenny))))))))))))))))))))) I always appreciate your words of wisdom. Thanks for your thought-provoking question.