I think thats how I am. I was in a psych hospital last year and I saw alot of the extreme cases of bipolar. The ppl that you didnt even have to ask if they were bipolar because you knew by taking one look at them. I think I am so afraid of the diagnosis because I feel that it is confirming to my family that there is something wrong with me. That I have the problem and that Im the problem child (my family is really dysfunctional so both my T and I agree that Im not the only one with a problem but they dont seem to see it that way). I guess I just didnt envisage my life this way. Thanks for offering to talk, I really appreciate it from all of you all