ive felt that way myself lately. like im letting the people around me down. like i cant stop focusing on my hurt. im seeing my friends and my family worry, but afraid to talk to me about things at the same time. i too wanna go to sleep and just not wake up, but i keep getting up, so thats gotta be a sign, we are meant to get through this. there is a light at the end of the tunnel, we are just no seeing it right now. keep talking, and keep posting. it does help to know your not alone.