Hi

Im new to this forum, and came on here to get some advice.

Ive been seeing this guy for 2 months. At the start it was wonderful, i felt insanely happy. My life felt better. We clicked instantly and for both of us, it felt like we've known each other for years. I told him i had never had a boyfriend before, to which he said " Can I be Your first. I'd love to be. I think your great".

Unfortunatly, we jumped into the sex stuff pretty quickly. I do have regret. I do believe it was part of me wanting to, but also part of him talking me into it, and him being the first guy to show any interest in me that way, and him saying all the right things. I feel a little bit of a fool in that way.

He continued to be great say good things. In person he was great - very affectionate.

Just under 2 weeks ago, we visited his old work place and one of his old work mates asked if he had a girlfriend. He pointed to me and said " look at her, beautiful, beauitful".

I only see him once a week. it seems that he says when. when he is free, even though he doesn't seem to work much. i work full time. its always when he is free.

Over these past few weeks (maybe more), i have been feeling dreadful. We used to chat online a lot - i mean 4+ hours at a time, even chatted for 10 hours once. This has died down a lot. to make matters worse is we met online. I know he still goes on the dating website we met on. which makes me ill.

We make plans and he cancels them. He says he'll call but he doesn't. he makes me wait and i find my self just waiting around for him to call, and then he never does and i have wasted the day. Im so sick of it. He does this and then in person he's all over me.

Im terrified that ive made a mistake in trusting him. Im constantly filled with regret. I can't stop thinking about it. I feel sad all the time. I feel like he is using me, and every great thing he has said has just been lies. About 3 weeks ago, he said "I like you heaps. How much do you like me?". 3 days go, i was at his place and his mate came around. He started playing with my feet with his feet, and then placed his leg/foot on my leg (like a leg rest). You wouldn't just do that in front of your mate if you didn't like the girl would you?

I can't sleep properly, im not eating - and ive lost weight - i cant concentrate at work or home, ive lost interest in things i loved doing. Im affraid its sending me into depression.

Whats the best way to handle this? I know i need to speak with him, see how he feels about me. Im praying to god that its just in my head and ive created more thoughts that arn't real or something, but i can't cope with this anymore. I thought he was so great and so amazing and im scared that he's actually just a jerk whos fooled me.

During the first month, he joked about marriage 3 times. He even said "Im in love" on msn. I asked if he was serious or joking and he said "joking, but it feels werid".....

i dont know whats going on with him. i can never get hold of him. he doesn't answer his phone. I think im feeling this way, partly due to the fact we jumped into sex too quickly, and that ive never been in this situation or felt these feelings for someone.

Whats the best way to bring this up to him? How do u start a conversation that is going to ask him how he feels about me? i dont know if i am his girlfriend. I think he's dating/sleeping with other girls - im worried in that regard for my own health.

im sorry this was so long, but thought i needed to provide a bit of a back story. any advice is appreaciated. i know its only 2 months but things happened quickly. too quickly. i know. its tearing me up.

thanks.