I have no where, no one and no one cares- so what Im depressed im lonely im hurting i messed up and no one can make it any better- i did this and i have to deal with it but its not that easy i cant deal i cant deal with anything even getting out of the bed or taking care of family it all hurts nothing helps and i have given up i really have so the SI continues well it never left for that matter but does that even matter anymore apparently not no one to talk to no one seems to notice and if they do they just think im crazy ***** and all i do is cry and im not sleeping and im waiting to see a doctor to get new meds i have given up on my therapist she doesnt get it no one gets it maybe thats because i dont get it - all i know is i cant get past things these things hurt so bad i cant even list them today- i dont deserve any ones thoughts or cares so why do i even post i dont know anymore nothing helps and all im doing right now is crying and wanting to just cut the pain away