Hi, dholly. It seems to me like you have done all you can do. If they choose to miss out on your life and your childrens' lives, then it's their loss. You can't force them to be a part of your life.... I wouldn't beg them or keep apologizing. It sounds like you are doing well for yourself and your kids. It's the rest of your family that's missing out. My suggestion is to get out and make some good friends, or take a good look at the friends you already do have in your life. I know my friends are my family in alot of ways. Sometimes we get to choose our family... those close friends can become your family. I'm not close to my family either, but I do have my own little family anyway. Just don't think you have to keep apologizing over and over for something. You've said it once, and I'm sure you meant it. That should be enough. I wish you all the best!!