((purple))) when we do the same things over and over and expect different results, that is one definition of insanity i have heard... so many continue to inspire you, its so terrible that it is not catching on for you... perhaps you have a more serious form of critical depression that what others are experiencing or maybe you are preventing yourself from hearing the positive and repetitive messages others are continuing to deliver you despite your protests.. whatever the case is, it certainly seems that there are two sides here needing to be heard.. there is yours which says I DONT MATTER , and there's ours which says YES YOU DO!... who is having a hearing or understanding issue right now? how can we meet in the middle on this one? any ideas? you're right, complaining gets old.... sending healing vibes always...