I think im as far as i can go, then i fall deeper. I dont know what else to do. Ive been like this for too long. Im trying to keep going and act as if to keep myself busy. I cant stop my head. It keeps going back to the pain and wants an escape. The social worker i was seeing at the clinic just isnt getting it. She wants me to start the partial program on wednesday. Then i cant see her, how is that going to help. We just started to work on things. I dont see myself getting out of this hole anytime soon. I feel very trapped. Very hopeless and no options. I cant go on existing like this. I dont know what else to do.

IVE TRIED WEBSITES ON THE STICKYS, IVE CALLED HOTLINES. WHAT ELSE.