chrise,

sorry you are having so many struggles these days. I just saw this post and wanted to answer you before i went to bed. We all have days where it seems that nothing will change the dismal lives we believe we live. But it does get better. sometimes we have to be our own advocate. Which stinks when you cant even get out of bed because youre depressed. I know that is probably what you DIDNT want to hear.

here is something you might like tho....I want you here. So keep coming back and posting. Im sorry i didnt see this right away. I want you to know that you are truly wanted here. and I hope we can become friends.

Hope this helps, even if just a little bit. heres a hug as well.

I hope you can see the light at the end of the tunnell. its called hope.

Take care,

Colleen