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I wonder if you can tell your T "I KNOW that this goes back to my deeper issues, but I can't be triggered talking about them before surgery. Can you just help me with some coping mechanisms to get through tomorrow and table that stuff for later?"

I'm sorry you have to have surgery, and have all of this added stress to go along with it. Thinking of you...