hi confused, i am opposed to leaving anyone in a confused state ...i will try to simplify my meanings for you ..

1. How can I truly know myself? It is even more difficult to understand myself than to understand others.

in time you will gain insight into the knd of individual you are.. at this point you are young and inexperienced... you will know yourself as you experience your world...

On a societal level, I would think that the way people perceive me would, in a sense, be the most accurate representation of me.

on a societal level the way most people perceive you is only how you are percieved by others... you may define yourself as you experience the world through your actions and statements involving others...



I was told by my therapist that it is literally impossible to survive without other people (I dissented, but I don't believe my opinion swayed him one way or another). Though I try to avoid specious logic as such, I would like to point out that it is "hard to see the forest when you're a tree."

you are a tree?


2. How can I allow myself to feel as I feel? Considering my emotions are in constant flux, that would mean at times, I would be enticed to act on my feelings in ways that are not cleaving to the moral or legal boundaries of my clique and country. That is simply unacceptable.

i agree you will need to define boundaries for yourself before you can apply them to your relationships


Sometimes, I find my anger aggrandized to the point that I want to destroy anything in my path. The only solace is that I recall that time will pass and my anger will subside, which would make any destruction, action or objection seem ridiculous in hindsight. Especially, I should not be generous! What fool gives away any resource without requite? Be it money, love, kindness, what have you... Be serious now. Then, I also refuse to allow myself to fall victim to the standards that force us to toe the line, so to speak..

if we choose those thoughts or actions which block our own progress we should not be surprised to find our path blocked... fools point fingers at fools... to love without requite is the very meaning of love... to give of self and have no need of payment is the thing that love promises... it is delivered without rationality or logic...

I take your final statement as meaning that to receive we must reciprocate by giving... I agree! That is a major principle as to how I operate: to change the world, you must start with yourself. In other words, live your own creed.

this is true for all...