((((chaotic))))

LOL -- I appreciate your desire not to be a total B, but what is really important is how you can care for yourself through the situation!

I would recommend talking to the Dr. You don't have to be specific -- just say
'I have anxiety about this procedure.' Then, let the Dr. know what is and is not helpful to you. For example, maybe choose one person to talk to you through the procedure, or if you do not want it explained, being warm, etc. It also helps me to have something special I can rub or focus my attention on.

My thoughts will be with you through this...I know you can do it.