i just dont get why i cant just go!! im so stupiddd its not that hard. i dont even know what im scared about. i just dont know how to express myself i dont know what to say i dont know how im feeling its all just bottled up inside liek it has always been all my life. there is so much that im feeling its overwhelming. and i hate doctors too!!! i would cry everytime i had to get blood taken or shots. and doctors offices creep me out..maybe thats another reason why im scared. IDK

i get want to get it over with already.