[quote=lmg103;881555]i just dont get why i cant just go!! im so stupiddd its not that hard. i dont even know what im scared about. i just dont know how to express myself i dont know what to say i dont know how im feeling its all just bottled up inside liek it has always been all my life.

Maybe for now, you should just concentrate on the mechanics of planning the time, getting yourself there, sitting and waiting, getting up and walking in the door (using reinforcers, deep-breathing, whatever works for you)rather than why you're having such a hard time. You can do that once you get in the door!

I put off going for soooo long because I was petrified and I, too, cannot express emotions verbally very well. It's tough. But, hey, you're young! You don't want to be saddled with this! Please do go!