so ive decided to stay friends with this guy... as well as friends with benefits.
now it seems to be going well - we meet when i want. hes absolutely lovely about it and i genuinely feel happy with this relationship - a first for me (lol..)
hes going through a lot of hard stuff at the moment and is really opening up about everything. we talk for hours and he can now openly trust me and talk to me about his mum and stuff..
one of the only friends he has left is a really good friend of mine, "A". and she, as with everyone else isnt aware of my relationship with "P". today a told me she really likes p. and she has major problems with depression and schizophrenia... she sees a t and takes medication but its still quite hard. she gets very emotional and doesnt take things too lightly.
and now im with p almost daily. not having sex but being able to kiss and be held by the guy that would make her happy. p says he doesnt really like her in that way (a conversation we had a few days before i found out) but wants to continue the relationship with me.. whatever it is. i think if needs be i could persuade him to go out with her.. he sounds like hes on the edge about it and if he knew that she liked him he would probably go out with her.
but the thing is i know it would be hard to not get emotions involved, if i did so. i would have to break it off with him. and I dont want to. it sounds awful and greedy and selfish but id much rather keep this going. and i know if she were able to go out with him it would make her so happy...
arrgh. should i help her, or just look out for myself??
x