Brokenheart1, pushing away people is something many of us do when we are overwhelmed...
Jme, but I'll do it whenever I'm feeling especially afraid of failing at doing something. It doesn't happen often now because I've learned it makes me feel lonely and sad. Being connected to another human being makes things easier for us.
Stay connected with people in real life, and stay connected with us.
Hey, you'll have two support systems!
We'll listen to anything you want to share, and you will not be judged. I've shared about my depression and worries and people here have truly shown me support.

Cap

p.s. I just read your newest reply. I'm sorry about your friend hurting you. I hope you can find someone who will listen to you and show you respect. You deserve to be shown respect.
You still have us as support while you make any changes that will ease your fears...