((Bowzz))
I'm new to this group, but not new to addiction.
I also applaud your courage in sharing here. Please don't beat yourself up for being human...

Just a thought, and I offer my apology for being nosy, but why isn't your physician giving you adequate pain control? It may be worth speaking to him about him, and also requesting a blood panel to check your liver enzymes.
I also am very careful about pain drugs, but there are some available that are non-addictive.
Another thought from my days of weaning; perhaps you can try doing it by half--instead of 3 take 2.5 until you see how it's going to affect you. Just please make sure they are "scored" or you may run into problems. If it's not scored, then do it a whole pill at a time.
Like everything else, it's baby steps.

Cap