For some reason this does sound familiar. Just I can't put my finger on it. I don't recall being hit a lot as a child. But there is something about not saying anything and staying.

I also have a history of bad, abusive relationships. Yet I stayed much longer than a "normal" person would. Normal isn't the right word,just can't think of one that fits better. Anyway, what feelings surface while typing this is it is my fault. It is always my fault. I am bad and I deserve what I get. Which is pretty much what I felt when a boyfriend or husband would be verbally or physically abusive towards me.

Anyway there is something.. just I can't put it together or remember, yet it does feel familiar. hmmmm