Very interesting and insightful responses, RF and Theama...
RF...yes, the feeling that it is "my" fault has been with me most of my life.
I was never EVER allowed to voice a disagreeing viewpoint, ever.
And, yes, Theama, staying much too long. I'm age 58, so the time I have stated in recovering from relationships is very substantial, and not an exaggeration.
Patty