In the end this man will go through the emotional, turmoil and pain as well. I know because I am there.

It is supposed to get easier, but it gets only harder. I carry so much shame and guilt for what I have done.

And, I lost the best friend I eve had. Makes me physically ill. EAch and every day is a chore, a burden. I am feeling so much stress today, tightness in my chest... I miss my ex girl friend so much. It is so very ahrd. This situation is tough on all involved.