All this time my husband and i have hardly talked at all about my OCD symptoms. It's not that he doesn't care or doesn't want to listen, but he doesn't want to upset me by asking I guess. Last night we were talking a little and he said he wished I would talk more about it so he could know what's going on with me and not be insulated from my issues.
But I'm really reluctant to talk about it. I worry that he won't understand that just because I think these thoughts it doesn't mean I'm endorsing them in some way, or that I would ever do some of the things I think or allow them to happen. And also I'm aware that the compulsive symptoms seem really nutty, like repeating conversations to myself.
And I feel like no matter how often I say "I would never do X, it's a totally irrational OCD thought" he might not believe me or might think I'm some kind of monster for even thinking it. He's a sensitive person.
I'd like to hear anyone's experiences talking with others about your symptoms.
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