I feel rageful and violent today, I should sleep more but I can't I feel like an animal trapped in a cage.
I have never felt this much anger over the past, about the abuse.
I just want to run around screaming and stomping my feet, I want to get on top of a building and just stand up there screaming my story.
I want to see my abuser hurt like they have hurt me, I want to see everyone's abuser's hurt like they have hurt all of us.

I want back what he has stolen from me, I want my innocence back, I want my happiness,

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS EVERY DAY, EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE, I HOPE HE ROTS IN HELL.

This stain on me, it never washes off, every day of my life I have to live with the memories, every day, every ****ing day, I can feel him, hear him, gahh @_@

I want to make him hurt, like he has hurt me, I want him to suffer like I have, I know that will never make the memories go away, and that no good comes with returning hurt with more hurt.

but today is just an odd day, and I feel a little unstable and unhinged, I need to sleep, I need to sleep,