I am not bi-polar but I have had some of the same feelings. I've had suicidal thoughts and days where I was about done with life. Sometimes life is confusing and you get caught up in your little shell and world. I look at the africans...I'm sure you've heard this one before but it's true. We could be in africa with aids, no clean water, eating very little each day...our parents are dead, we are orphaned....how do the Africans get through their day?...I'm pretty sure I could have some emotional trauma if I lived there...

Not only are there people who are worse off....but maybe there is pain for a reason.

Because of our pain we learn lessons, we learn about ourselves...who our real friends are...to be more compassionate...be more giving...sometimes you need to wait out the pain and when you wait long enough...something good happens...there is a rainbow around the corner...

I look back on my painful experiences and go...you know...I wouldn't want to be anyone else but me...I've been thorugh a lot...but I've gotten through it...and these experiences are unique to me...and in a way...this is sort of a gift from God.

I understand that dealing with bi-polar disease is relaly difficult and emotionally, mentally, and physically painful...but you are unique...and in some ways are more special than others because you have to deal with this as well as other things in your life...In someways...I look up to people like you because I think you are amazing...how you get through life...believe me I thought it was bad enought that my fmaily is somewhat dysfunctional...if I ahd to deal with mood swings as well...I wouldn't be able to take it...but you can and that is who you are...you're brave

I could go on about this...but I think you have the idea...God has a plan for everyone...and he loves you for who you are