want to find someone who hurt you in your past? in year 7 my old best friend became my bully.. both verbally and phsically abusing me. it did.. mess my life up a lot. she screwed me over, stupid situations are harder to deal with and now... im thinking about her a lot. not in a sexual or amicable way ofc.. i just want to know about her. what she does, if she has friends. i dont know why. i had panic attacks just thinking about her for a lot of that year. now im worried im getting obsessive =/

i dont know why i want to know about her.. has anyone been through this before? its been about four years since i last saw her, when she was excluded for bad behavior. i only told people about it after she left.
thanks
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