Yeah, I can definetly relate. Not necesarily with the interupting, because when I'm "speeded up" my mom ignores me because I annoy the crapola out of her. She gets really irritated, and even though I know how mad she is, I can't stop. She doesn't understand though because I'm not diagnosed. The reason I haven't said anything is because quite frankly, I don't want to face it- I've tried for so long to look at other possiblities to explain my symptoms, but nothing else fits ( I have undergone a complete physical with blood test and all) but I don't want to start the circus of finding the right meds, etc etc. I have told one friend about it, and the other day she was over. I started having laughing fits, and at one point I was so mad at myself for not being able to stop laughing, that I felt like crying. Not wanting to go "too crazy" in front of her, I simply stood up, went into the hallway, closed the door, and that sent me on a laughing trip. I was literally on the floor, in hysterics, banging my hands and feet, tears streaming down my face, unable to stop laughing. Nothing was funny. i wanted nothing more then to stop, but I wasn't physically capable. Through the crack under the door I could see my friend pull out her homework and try to ignore my fit, which sent me into an even wose laughing fit. between fits I would go back in the room and talk with her, and as soon as I started to laugh I would go back into the hallway. At one point I was in the hallway trying not to cry, and then laughing at how crazy I felt. When the fits finally subsided, I went into pissed off mode...Not fun.
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