Hi. I'm glad to see people are thinking of me! I'm around. I've been Christmas shopping, helping my youngest practice his choir music for concerts, etc. I've been doing okay, but tonight my boyfriend and I got in a fight. I'm not even sure what about- he said I want sex more than he does and then when we'd made up about that, he launched into why didn't I sign up for classes next semester yet. I feel so judged. Nevermind that today I found out that my insurance was cancelled when I did everying I was supposed to so that it WASN'T! I need to make yet ANOTHER phone call. I was so upset when the pharmacist told me that, that I broke down crying in the hallway on the way to see if I could talk with my pdoc about it. Not like me! I saw my pdoc by emergency chit-chat and her nurse and they gave me samples of depakote and lithium and I got celexa for $4 at the grocery store. We're going to taper me off very quickly from Depakote while upping the Lithium quickly. Lithium is going from 300 a day to 450 t0 600- all within a week so double within one week. Gonna be a bumpy ride. I just hope no emergencies happen. My KIDS aren't even insured now! Its a long story, but basically I feel like my application for medicaid is being thrown in the trash. I've dropped things off on time, brought in other papers... no resonse except from the state. THEY are at least sort of helpful. Meanwhile, I have all my mom things to do, including xmas stuff. School basically went out the window- I withdrew. I couldn't do it for some reason and that makes me feel horrible. Then my boyfriend is mad at me about it... One second he is asking me if I'd like to know more about photography and the next...