Which AD are you taking? With certain anti-depressants, when you first go off of them, you feel really bad as your body readjusts to drug-free life. It can take a month or two. It doesn't necessarily mean you are still depressed "under there" but just having a hard time coming off the drugs. So if you really think you aren't depressed anymore, you could ask your NP for a plan to come off the drug. You can taper it off slowly and give your body a chance to adjust slowly, and then give it a couple of months to see how you feel. If you don't feel well after that, you can always start taking the drugs again.

It sounds like you are wanting some more contact with your practitioner, because she is compassionate and a good listener. Maybe a therapist would be helpful to you. Does your NP do therapy? If not, maybe she can recommend a good therapist.