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Dec 04, 2008, 05:42 AM
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Member Since: Dec 2008
Location: Port Augusta
Posts: 7
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I wanted to write this out and figured this would be the area to do it in, I want to write it out because I figured it'd help me perhaps sort out what's actually bothering me, whether it was from my past, or something more recent or even both. I'll start from the earliest I can remember...or when I think the trouble began....
When I was 12 Mum and Dad got a divorce, and I thought that Dad was the cause of it happening, but as I got older I started to see things from both sides and I could fit the jigsaw together. Mum was a very jealous person, dad couldn't even watch a shampoo advert without getting told off. Before the divorce took place, mum went to see a social worker...he was married and they eventually had a relationship and recently got married...right?? Illegal. Mum and David (the social worker) moved to Mount Gambier, I stayed with Dad but eventually moved to mum's when I was about 13. I thought David was a nice guy, and thought I could trust him, with him being a social worker and all, boy was I wrong. He yelled at me alot, I could never do anything wrong. I should also mention my mum as MS (not sure of the spelling), I helped around the house as much as I could so mum didn't have to; I cooked, cleaned and did the washing, yet it was never enough for David. We started fighting all the time, me and David, then one day he went too far...david yelled at me for having a friend walk me home and I was 2 minutes late...2 minutes. He hit me and kicked me out, mum stood by and did nothing, she had a ticket booked for my bus trip home back to be with dad the very next morning, I was 15.
When I moved back with Dad at grandmas place, it wasn't much different then when I had left. Nothing much else happened from there on. i wasn't diagnosed with Anxiety until last year, I was 16 when I was diagnosed.
I've been fine since I've been on medication, until recently. My bf of 6 months (i know 6 months sounds ridiculous, but he had never mentioned this before) he dumped me because he "...couldn't handle..." my depresssion, which was strange coz he had never had a problem with it before. Now my anxiety is through the roof again, I'm having trouble sleeping, I tried staying at a friends house because I'm relaxed around him and it didn't work, I'm having trouble keeping my food down. So yeah, I don't know what else to write lol just needed to get that out 
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