It makes total sense to me that you feel emotional pain. It's so hard to handle sometimes. You tried everything you knew how to cope with it.

This won't go on forever. The pain *does* subside.

To help me manage the pain until it decreases, I often do deep breathing, or exercise vigorously (it makes me tired). Cleaning or gardening help me, too. Sometimes I scream into a pillow or punch it. I also journal, or tear up paper. Especially when it's difficult to cry, it's important for me to find a way to get the emotions out a little, and then I feel more like I can cope.

Take care. Can you do something kind for yourself today?