((((((((((((((((((((((((((searchingmysoul))))))))))))))))))))))))))

When I started T, I definitely felt an "urgency" to get better - NOW! I was so sick of living with the memories, the PTSD, etc.

It turns out healing is a slow process (at least for me). During some sessions, we literally managed to get through only ONE SENTENCE about a trauma...there would be all of this fear leading up to it that would take up a bunch of the session, I would finally spit it out, and we would process it. Talk about slow!

AND, yes, my PTSD definitely felt much worse at times during the process (and I'm sure there will be times when that happens again). T compared it to chemo - sometimes the thing that heals us makes us feel sicker for a while...

Let yourself take your time. Talk about how hard it is to talk. You will get through this.