Grace--
So sorry that you are hurting so badly right now. I hope that you feel free to share your feelings here.
I'm not sure what advice to give or what to say, but I can only say that I've been were you are and let me tell you it can get better.
I wouldn't obsess so much or worry about people being fake to you; it seems to me as maybe everything seems fake right now. Fake is not the right word--not concrete maybe--
take care of yourself and hope to hear from you again soon

moonlight

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