Thank you Sabby & youOme,

yeah i really dont know what to do. Im torn. Some people tell me it wont work, it will only work for some time and then people will get hurt, or that it can work. Im worried that it will make things worse. But also, in a way - want it. I dont know why. I can't work that out yet.

There is obviouslly that physical attraction, it was there from the start. And the affection is SO NICE. I miss that. Is it possible to do just that? Like hugs, cuddling, etc...without sex?

Yes i am worried about the risks - health, one will want more, feelings, pregnancy. Its all running through my mind.

I guess i'll wait until i see him next, whenever that will be, or wait until he mentions it again. he may not.

Im very new at the 'dating' thing. How does it work exactly? How often would you see someone? He said he didn't want to put a 'label' on anything right now. He said hes planning to go overseas next year - how long i dont know, but when i think of that, it makes me think, theres no point.

Im not in love. I like him - a lot - probably too much. I think it has a lot to do with the fact he's my first (first kiss, sex - everything) and that he's the first guy to show ANY interest in that way. To me, he's incredibly good looking - i'd never thought in a million years, that someone that looks like him, would go for someone like me. .... may sound odd, but its how i feel! lol.

thanks so much for your help.