I have been thinking alot today about whether I should officially switch T's or not. I really like the new one, well as much as I can giving it was only one visit thus far, but what if it doesn't turn out like I thought?

The one I have now is not a bad T, I am just not totally clicking with her, be it her or me. I keep thinking this change may be good and who could ask for a greater rate ect.

Yet, somehow, I keep going over alot of things in my head. Like I have been with my old T for 11 months; in that time there was a good amount of sharing going on. It just feels weird cutting that relationship off, she never did anything to hurt me ect.

I'm thinking about how much time it took to trust her and share things, and now having to start that ALL over again with another T. That thought kills me.

Then the other side is that I have shared a good amount with my old T, so maybe it won't be so hard to open up to the new one with alot of that info. Its just stinks to think that I am going to ditch a T like that, thats my normal routine in life when I get close to people and I almost feel like that is what I am doing in this case.

Yet, I am thinking back to when I first started seeing her and there was always this hesitant side of me. That maybe with this new T I won't have that as bad. It just stinks thinking about starting this all over again.

A part of me is sad having to leave my other T, and is even more worried about having to break that news to her. What if it doesn't work with my new T?

Hangingon