Yep, that makes sense. When we get set off, we get further stressed--so we can't think. That's how people respond to stress--your focus narrows and you look for the way out, the path you have trampled many times. Knowing that there was a reason I couldn't think of options has helped me accept my behavior, a little bit.

For example, I was triggered this past holiday. I knew I would be and I had scheduled an outing with a friend to distract and comfort me, but the friend cancelled. I literally could not think of anything else to do. Finally, it occurred to me to call another friend, but I couldn't get any words out to ask for help. Just like I was frozen during the original traumas, I freeze when I get scared or in pain now.

I am really glad that you are taking care of yourself by seeking help here on PC. That's good self-care!