Well I survived! Surgery went well. I drove each child to school gave them an extra hug and then drove to the hospital to face my fears. Although the nurses were very nice and worked as quickly as possible I still started to become agitated. They kept checking my BP and HR because they were off the scale. Thankfully one of my good friends saw through my I’m fine façade and showed up just after the nurses were finishing their preliminary assessments and putting in the IV. She stayed and talked with me for a while which really helped a lot to get my mind off sitting in the hospital. After she left the anesthesiologist came in chatted with me, and asked if I wanted a sedative. I said I would appreciate that. Miss C I also asked him if I could keep my ipod, he said not problem. The first dose didn’t seem to do much, but he came back right before wheeling me into the OR and gave me another dose—THEN I was feeling a bit calmer. The OR people refused to let me keep my ipod on—some guy was kind of a jerk about it, but I relinquished and just tried to chill out and watch the ceiling as they strapped me down to the OR table. Then I was out. The surgery went well, and I am very blessed to be doing as well as I am at this point.