good for you! it takes a very strong person to be able to say to someone you care about "look, im just not ready". I know how hard it was for me and I can imagine the kind of confusion you went through to come to that decision.

In the end, you cant do stuff to make other people happy. You have to do whats best for you! If you focus on that (I know its easier said than done) everything else will fall into place.