((((((((earthmama, spotted owl)))))))))) thank you for the hugs - we need them.
did get sleep - took a sleeping pill for that reason, which was good since it took quite a while to sleep. still keep churning all the thoughts, confusion, and various phrases through my mind. this is as close to a rupture as we have ever come. also, usually the system cries after the switch - when i am back - because it is auch a release of tension, fear.... it is really not usual for the alters to cry through the session.
that was really scary.