Wow,
My new T just told me during my first visit this past week that often when people suffer from sexual abuse therapy tends to take a long time. I laughed and said yes, when I first started therapy I went with the intention of just going and getting over this. Now 11 months later, I feel like I still have not let alot out but that my other T said that I am much more trusting than most who come in.

She told me that often more mature people tend to work really hard at healing and can very well move forward faster, I guess I will have to wait and see.

My first T said that it all depends on the person as well, and that sometimes it does take a long time.

When I first started therapy I would had dreaded the thought of being T longest running patient. Now in a sense I still do, I want to heal but I don't want therapy to control my life so to speak, I don't want to have to think about it every week for the rest of my life, if that makes sense. I just want to live and be happy.

Before I left my first appointment with my new T, I said do people really heal from this, she said yes, but healing means many different things to different people. Its getting to the place where you want to be personally.

I have no idea how its all going to go. I guess only time will tell.

Hangingon