Higher Power at work for us...
You are welcome and thank you also. I kept getting "prompted" to share here about my gratitude for being alive and sober. I've learned to do these things because they don't go away until I do.

One year is grand and I congratulate you...
gotta be honest with you now.
#1 we are in the same place--so far today I've not found it necessary to take a drink or get high. yeah, the days add up but it's not the number of days; it is today only.
#2 my sponsor was blunt about telling me that the honeymoon was over after the first year.
jme, but I felt a wee bit deflated after the eating meeting to celebrate it. I had this intense desire to make that first year, and I did and then it was, "What Now?!"
Realty was what...changing so very many things in my life was nearly overwhelming. One day at a time took on new meaning for me...

Christmas. Do you have meetings you can attend? Our groups keep our regular schedules and the Agape Center has morning and lunch meetings...it's open all day and a lunch is served after the meeting. Everyone pitches in and brings a dish. It's been real interesting when almost everyone brings a dessert and two people bring a casserole
Do you have anything like that where you live? Have you talked with your sponsor?
Perhaps with a bit of planning it won't be too bad.
I'm usually online early every morning and check in here at PC. Perhaps others are going to be doing the same thing on Christmas...gosh, a mini-meeting would be great!

splitimage, I won't BS you. It's hard, and there were days I would have sold my first-born--if I could have caught her--for a drink/drug. Then I would hear or see something at a meeting that stayed in my heart and made many of the following days so much easier.
When I was really having a crappy time is when I'd double up on meetings when I could. Lunch ones and every evenings. I met some amazing people that way so it was a hidden gift.

I am so sorry!! I'm rambling on and just realized that I don't even know if you are in a 12th step program...forgive me please. Next time I will do more reading before I post--I was going to delete this but maybe it's best if I leave it.

Please know that I care about you. We don't know each other IRL, but we are staying sober one day at a time and that makes you family to me...

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